Thursday, December 17, 2009

Reflections of 2009

I will not be sad to see 2009 end. It's been a rough year. There was a lot of good too and I know from the bottom of my heart that I am BLESSED beyond measure. I may have problems and stress but I have sooo much to be Thankful for.

2009 Reflections...

I saw two dear friends pass away from cancer. My friend, Pat had battled cancer for almost five years before losing that battle at the end of January. Then there was my friend, Tim. Tim discovered he had Renal Cell cancer in August of 2008. They removed one his kidneys and surrounding lymph nodes. He was told everything was OK but then the cancer reappeared last Christmas. He didn't even tell me until after the new year. He didn't want to depress me. Once it returned, it came with a vengeance. He died just three months later on March 30Th. Tim and I had been friends since first grade. He was only 41!

In May, I was forced by my employer to take a 20% pay cut. That hurt BUT it was manageable. They took 20% but gave me a day off and a 4 day work week is super nice...especially during the summer. I had a GREAT tan as I spent a lot of time just relaxing by the pool.

I killed my Ipod Touch in June by accidentally washing it. That was a VERY bad day! I LOVED my Ipod Touch. I couldn't replace it right away because I had just gotten the 20% pay reduction. However, thanks to some early birthday/Christmas I now have a new one. YAY!

I was supposed to be relaxing in Cabo San Lucas this weekend...but now I cannot go...THANKS DELTA AIRLINES. Have I told you lately that I don't Delta anymore? SELL AIRTRAN or anyone else! Delta gave me two business class tickets and then would never clear any space on the outbound flight. Grrrrrr!

I did manage to get in one vacation this year. I had a wonderful trip to Washington, DC. last month. It's a great city to visit but It will wear you out trying to see it all. I need another trip there soon.

I still haven't told my mom that I'm gay! DAMN IT! Why is it so hard for me to tell her? I did come out finally to my sister and dad. I am a 40 year old man. The doors to the closet are wide open but for some reason I am clinging on to the door frame with all my might as far as my mom is concerned. If you want to know about my struggles with my sexuality check out my very first blog here. It will give you all the details. I told myself I would be out to everyone by the end of this year. The clock is ticking with just two weeks left. Tick Tock, Tick Tock, Tick Tock!

I read a great book this first in a long time! Thanks to my friend Bunny for suggesting it. If you like to read check out "Americas Boy" by Wade Rouse. It will really resonate with a lot of gay man.

I've made new friends that I hope to get to know better in 2010. I've also reconnected with a few old friends thanks to Facebook. Can I tell you now that I am totally addicted to Facebook. Hello, my name is Bob!

I started blogging this year. Thanks to Bunny and the movie, "Julie & Julia" for the inspiration. Four months later and I've gone from just a couple of readers to 178 unique visitors and almost 3000 page views. Thanks to everyone reading this for stopping by and for commenting. I hope I get to know you all better in the new year.

Bob Out


Sonya said...

Here's to new friends! Merry Christmas, Bob. Good luck with sharing your news with your mom. Can't even imagine how difficult that step must be. XOXO

robertga99 said...

Thanks, Sonya!
So glad we met in 2009. Thanks for being my hot beard! :)

bunny said...

WHAT??? Who's your beard?? ;)
Bobs, if you don't do this, you cannot move ahead next year. SACK UP and do it! Just let me know what day so I can have booze, nachos and Puffs handy.

robertga99 said...

I know, I know. I swear I have balls...I just have to dig around for them.
You can bring the booze, nachos and puffs anytime!

Dean Grey said...


2010 will be a GREAT year for you. I just know it!

You will come out to your mom when the time is right for YOU. There's no time limit on that sort of thing.

Wishing you a safe and happy New Year's!!


robertga99 said...

Thanks, Dean!
hope you have a wonderful 2010

raulito said...

Just a short one to tell you I like your blog. 2009 was not good for most you actually know anybody who can say this year was a good one? But when a door closes a windo opens and 2010 is full of possibilities...and hope.

Mark in DE said...

I was referred to your blog via Bob at I Should Be Laughing. Love it! I'm following you now.

Re: coming out to your mom. If you're 40, single, and not totally insane, what makes you think she doesn't already know?? Rather than constructing some major coming out discussion with her, just bring it into a conversation when you can. You know, like when she's watching the news on TV or reading the paper you could say "Did you hear/read about DC legalizing gay marriage? I think that's great, cuz I'm gay. But you probably already knew that."

Good luck, and happy new year!